justgottamakeit.

"i know music was your life, so i made it my passion.

i'm just tryna be now what you were gonna be back then..."

-[Alex Parker]., For My Pops

so i just got off the phone with my mom's ex (from like, pre-puberty...loooong time) who works in the music biz (used to be in production or something, now he does distribution work), and he's gonna make some calls and hopefully get me in the studio at some point this week. i'm trying to lay down at least three songs (Jay-Z Meets Shwayze/5 Shades/bitter.), with the intention of getting them out to whoever is hearing-capable with a good ear for hip-hop. out of all the hopeful studio situations that have fallen before me and failed miserably, this one seems the most concrete because A) he's been in the business at least 10 years, so he's bound to have a lot of reliable music connects; and B) we go back a long time so i doubt he'd half-ass or short-sheet me in this situation. i told him i was serious and that i really wanna do this full-time. hopefully he heard the sincerity.

[man...]

i really really really really really hope this works out...and well. i mean, i know i'm talented, but i'm grounded in the fact that this industry is trivial and that success isn't guaranteed no matter how talented you are or what connections you have. i think that was a run-on sentence. whoops. but seriously, i've got my hopes up. if this falls off, it'll feel like a plane crash (yeezy throwback line: Common feat. John Legend & Kanye West - They Say).

alright, time to go practice some more...rehearsing and making sure everything's tight and record-ready.

[outtius].