tuesday.

i was sleepy as FUCK today. i slept through 2nd period, snuck a few z's in 3rd, slept all through 4th period & lunch*, woke up at the end of 5th period, and dozed my way through 6th while only gettin caught once. the best sleep outta all that had to be 5th period, cuz he'll pretty much let you sleep. if you don't do the work? that's on your ass, not his. i dig that. idk why i was so damn sleepy today. maybe it's cuz i played GTA IV til 3, maybe it's cuz i watched The Rocker right afterwards. idk, it's hard to tell.

i went back to poetry club today too, forgot how much i love that atmosphere. i mean you got the standard rhymers, the freeversers, the not-quite-rap rhythmic spoken word cats, the actual rappers, and then you got those like me: all of the abobe. i did Ghetto Ambience Pt. 1 a capella. i finished and they were all like "wooow". and the teacher was like "you're so smart it makes me sick" or somethin like that...not in a mean way, she's just funny like that. she's just not used to me dropping gems cuz i rarely make appearances to the club. i'm surprised i went today, considering how sleepy i was. definitely hittin it up next week though.

*why is it that these goddamn black people in the lunch room are so amazed when people sleep? everytime i'd drift in for a second: "maaaan that nigga gone!" or "that nigga ain't even eatin lunch! he just sleepin!". but my favorite had to be "hey! hey nigga! why you sleepin?! nigga! niiii-gaaaa!!! *pause*...maaaan that nigga gone!". this is what i deal with. daily.

meanwhile, further along the highway...

tomorrow i'm gonna ask ---- to prom where she'll more than likely say no. okay, i'm prepared for that. i guess i should go ahead and let her know that i might be leaving the school a little earlier than expected, which i hope would have this devastatingly heart wrenching effect on her. of course, if she's just like "o. okay" it's gonna make it a lot easier for me to be outty. i know it's bad to base decisions off of that but i'm me. and me thinks like me thinks. i just wish i'd been awake at lunch so i could be talking about how this all took place instead of discussing how i'm about to do it, though i guess an extra day of mental prep is a blessing. maybe. i think i'm gonna end on that note. it's about 3:04 and i wanna catch about 2 more hours before my phone alarm pisses me off to high hell.

hey, i'm outty....5000!!!!!!

AND 1.

[werd].