no.

i think i still kinda like this one friend of mine that i had liked forever and never had the 'nads to say anything to her about it. here's the transcript of me talking to her brother about it a few weeks ago(read from the bottom to the top, of course):

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Kvn.
Date: Aug 15, 2008 5:35 PM


o. idk, that's a feeling managed by something beyond my control i guess

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: I did 3 things 2day miss u miss u n miss u 8/15/08
Date: Aug 15, 2008 8:32 PM


my sis

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Kvn.
Date: Aug 15, 2008 5:20 PM



---- or your sister?
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: I did 3 things 2day miss u miss u n miss u 8/15/08
Date: Aug 15, 2008 8:14 PM


i still don't see whats so great about her...

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Kvn.
Date: Aug 15, 2008 5:09 PM


no idea. it's kinda weird cuz sometimes i feel like i still like your sis a lil. then i take that feeling and beat it into submission. but that reluctant SOB keeps coming up.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: I did 3 things 2day miss u miss u n miss u 8/15/08
Date: Aug 15, 2008 7:23 PM


so when are yall gonna go out

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Kvn.
Date: Aug 15, 2008 3:49 PM



yea, but we don't have any classes together. we just eat lunch together every day.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: I did 3 things 2day miss u miss u n miss u 8/15/08
Date: Aug 15, 2008 6:43 PM


yeah.
so wats up wit u and ----...do u still talk to her?






main problems with this are:
A). she only sees me as a friend, and barely that on some days
B). she shudders at other people mentioning us going out (which is like a 12-gauge to the self-esteem, but i manage)
and C). she's moving soon...

lol, C is actually the least of my worries compared to A and B

idk why i even like her still. it's annoying and it hurts for no damn reason...the whole us thing will NEVER happen. oil and water don't mix, and she's hydrophobic.



ok i lied, that's not the main problem.

the main problem is that i like ----(idk why i'm censoring her name, i just feel like it) now, and i really wanna go out with her, but that feeling is being conflicted by the aforementioned feeling.

to put it simply, my interests are divided and it's headache.

man, this post is a mess. my thoughts are all over the place right now...sorry to whoever read this far.


hm, on a brighter note, i've got three more projects in the works as of yet:
Shooter ft. Ms. Porsh
Magic (KvnTheTruth remix) - Robin Thicke
and a special DP collab (it's like 10 of us on there altogether).

Magic's done...just gotta record
Shooter's being written
and the DP collab's being written simultaneously with Shooter...(it's fun to swap bars).

oh, and since i mentioned Ms. Porsh i guess i'll plug her blogger page: http://msporsh.blogspot.com/

don't know much about her, but she's got some dope music and this collab should be pretty dope and at the end of the day, isn't that what matters?

outty 5000...and 1.