the driver.

my, speakers.
i encourage children to do bad things.

where...

is the goddamned reset button when you need it?
why does it seem that i'm only appreciating the sky after i've buried
myself so far underground, i can't see it anymore?
i mean fuck...i'm only gonna be 19 on the 31st...that's WAYYY too
early in life to be thinking like thinking like this. still, i am. so
i'm going to fix it.
my new year's resolution is simple (in words): stop being a fuck-up.
sounds kinda simple, but when you account for all of the pieces of my
life that are in disarray, you see how much work there is to be done.
that's why i'm getting a head start on it. like, today. i would say
that this is me planning to hit '10 running, but as far as i'm
concerned, this is just catch-up. key thing for me is to stay focused
and motivated...i have a nasty habit of losing momentum. i'm not sure
how to work through that yet, but i'll be damned if i'm not gonna try.

2 responses:

lalaliybean said...

i'm the same exact way. i let myself down on every promise or goal i make for my self and i'm sick of it. hopefully by next year we will have it all together.

[Alex]. said...

i dig, but personally i'm past hoping. shit HAS to happen. it's like i've been operating on high school freshman level...and i'm college freshman age. PAST time to be off that. here's to next year!