"cuz we all just wanna be..."

yea so today was rockstar day as spirit week continues at the mill. yesterday was nerd day, but i forgot so it was whatever. today i really got into it though: ed hardys, faded black jeans, small black tee, dress shirt with the collar and sleeves torn off, wristbands, watch, bracelets, pieces of shirt, sunglasses, etc... it was pretty funny to look at. ---- dressed up for it too and DAMN, she looked madd sexy (understatement). that look definitely fits her. i forgot to take pics. lol, damn she looked good.


ok, before i repeat myself, moving on...

tomorrow's twin day. la-dee-da. never been a fan of coordinating outfits. i usually just go in all black and if someone asks who my twin is i just point to some random black-shirt wearing person. lol, i've done that every year since middle school. never fails. thursday's throwback day and, for the third year in a row, i'm breakin' out the wig. the big king kong afro wig to beat all afro wigs. idk what the rest of my attire will consist of, but it doesn't matter. the wig is where it's at.

oh yeah, grammy just walked in with dinner. awesome. i'm still not talking to her much and i'll address why after i cease consumption.

outty!!

californidexter.

season 3 of Dexter premiered tonight! i fuckin love that show, and the premier did not disappoint in the least. i'm already counting down 'til next sunday. i wonder if it's weird that one of my favorite shows ever is about a serial killer. lol, at least he only kills bad guys right?

also, californication's 2nd season premiered. i've never watched it before, but the season 2 premier was good enough to make me watch the first season OnDemand. it's like i did with entourage: saw a couple of episodes, watched the first 4 seasons OnDemand, and now i'm a die-hard. oooh, speaking of entourage, new episode tonight!! ooh, and TrueBlood. trueblood's interesting. i'd never paid attention to anna paquin outside of the x-men trilogy and her small role in almost famous, but she's pretty good in trueblood. plus i'm a bit of a vampire fan (odd, right?). blame it on twilight. the only thing i hate about that show is the fact that paquin's character's name is sookie (gross), and the black chick (rutina something-or-other) has the worst pseudo-southern accent ever. besides that, it's totally watchable.

but seriously, DEXTER OWNS YOUR WORLD. this first episode is setting the whole season up for some serious bueno. i'm gonna re-watch it after my entourage/trueblood block, which i'm gonna start....now.

outty!
6k (dig the upgrade)

pricetags.

oh yea, i'm a poet too.

In this self-interest based society,
Things appear to us,
The way we want them to be.
Media blinds,
We become desensitized,
Demoralized.
Hypnotized.
Nothing seems wrong
But nothing seems right.
Illusions hold us captive,
Decisions no longer exist
In our minds, at least.
The sign to the left
Points to the sign to the right.
To put up a fight
Is pointless when there's
No winner, no loser,
And nothing in between.

We're fallen victims,
Victimized by our own illusions,
The ones we create
To justify our state
Of being,
To make us happy.
But we are not.
The story's not yet done.
Solution number one:
Move along,
Like we always do.
But we know not
Where we're going to.
Just don't make a fool
Of me.
Goal number one:
Get happy.
So fuck, fuck,
And fuck some more.
Shit, the girl sitting next to me
At Sunday mass has a sexy ass.
Your thinking is so complex.
The kind of thinking
That will lead you to deceiving.
Don't worry, the finger points
In different directions.
There's no certainty in
Who's to blame.
So many differences,
But really, it's all the same.
Do what makes you happy,
If you remember what happy even means.
It seems as though I forgot...

You dream of becoming
Something,
But you're lost
When no one's there.
And no one's there
Most of the time for you,
Or so it seems.
Let's work at it,
But when we try,
There's always someone in our way.
It's you, my friend.
So get the hell out of my way.
But be here when I want you to be.

What matters to you
Is knowing that no one else
Besides yourself really matters.
But you keep living life
On either fast forward,
Or rewind.
Helplessly waiting,
Reminiscing,
Stagnant,
But solutions don't arrive
To you in time.
So work harder,
Think harder,
Fuck harder.
But it's harder to get farther
With this contradictory concoction
Of perversity and determination.

The convenience store sells a cock
In a dildo's disguise,
For your convenience.
Replacements are easy to find
Sensations overloading,
It'll last all night,
More than you'd ever last,
With these rechargeable batteries
That recharge in only an hour.
Taking you to a different level.
Recharging my false passion for you.

We arrive tonight
At a final thought.
Things will be like this,
Whether we like it or not.
We go where we want to go,
We are who we want to be.
Media targets us,
But right now I'm targeting you.
Because your skin cells
Are still on my skin,
The smell of your body spray
Still lingers
On my clothes.
If they invented a toy
That would do the things you do,
To mimic you for my reality,
I'd buy it right away.
For you to be with me -
Because your attention,
Your care, your love
Is never free.

either she's the one, or i'm caught in the matrix.

at this point, i'm thinkin i'm caught in the matrix.

lol, life these days...

"every time ya name was brought up, i would act all nonchalant in front of a audience..."

truth be told, she threw throws me for a loop.

irony.

yesterday was awesome, woke up at 7, realized i didn't have to go to school, went back to sleep, woke up at 11. got up, walked to fayetteville, bought some shades, some games (Enter The Matrix, The Matrix: Path of Neo), saw Get Smart, ate this bomb-ass chicken sandwhich, got some lemonade from chik-fil-a, played star wars: force unleashed, went to my aunt's house, played with my baby cousin, then went home. pretty comfortable day. i went job hunting too, but that was just as unsuccessful as it's ever been.

there's a downside though.

now i'm sick. i guess walking all day in that mild weather didn't really help me too much. i woke up feeling like someone filled my head with cement. i was clogged up, and my head was pounding. sucks majorly cuz i really needed to be at school today. not only did i miss another lunch with ----, but i was also supposed to stay after for test corrections and this club meeting. so now i've gotta wait until next week for test corrections, and however long it is until the next club meeting. bumfart. i already missed like, two of the meetings. now this is three.

damn, i think i missed a quiz too. gonna go read up for AP Bio and play some more Matrix, idk why i'm hooked all of a sudden. o well.

O=5g's+1

music.

i think i picked a good selection of songs for my playlist. it showcases my talent range sort of. let's break it down, shall we?

1. The Takeoff - the exhibition, the first track i want people to hear if they haven't hear me before.
2. Incredible - collaboration with the homie Dutch. track shows me trying on a new style, of sorts.
3. They Know - collaboration with the homie Young Boogie. track shows me on my superficial swag-type style.
4. Superstar - this one shows me on a lil superficial, but with some deeper metas and a story to follow. definitely some "hold on, what'd he say?"-type of lyrics.
5. For My Pops - me at my deepest. this song's got my heart. this is the song that i recorded more for myself than anything else. this is me getting my emotions out about my dad. definitely the hardest to record, you can hear me choking up a little. my throat was getting madd thick. i got it out though. didn't even break down. just got all misty-eyed.

so that's that.

also, i made a bunch of accounts on various music sites over the weekend and here are the links to each:

all of the sites listed below have a song or multiple songs from the playlist that's on this blog, except for the myspace, it's got a few different ones up there. of course, that doesn't mean you shouldn't visit the links. i could use all the support i can get.

Myspace
http://www.myspace.com/kvnthetruth

imeem
http://www.imeem.com/kvnthetruth

AllHipHop *the forum that i started there, you can see my lil profile and stuff too.*
http://community.allhiphop.com/go/thread/view/12461/4933551/New_Kid_KvnTheTruth?sdb=1&pg=last#123882041

SoundClick
http://www.soundclick.com/kvnthetruth

ReverbNation
http://www.reverbnation.com/kvnthetruth

this. is. GAS HUNT!!!!

*warning, this is kinda novel-ish. you may just wanna skim for the entertaining bits. i don't really want you to do that, but if you must.*

today was cool.
i woke up, went back to sleep. woke up, checked myspace for this pic, but it didn't work. checked my myspace play count, checked my imeem play count, checked my AllHipHop play count, checked my soundclick play count, checked my ReverbNation play count, then i kinda just sighed. i know i just made all those accounts yesterday, but i'm anxious for views/listens. i want people to hear my music.

but uh, yea...

after that i looked at those pics i took friday (btw, i took pics on friday), i like 'em. the outfit i put together worked quite nicely. might wear that to school. i'd go so far as to call it kanye-ish, but he'd probably laugh if he read that. it was more of a cross between steph jones and mr. west than just mr. west himself. the hat thing i got from him.

hm, actually the outfit was more steph jones than anything else.
kanye and steph have similar styles though.
i was listening to Love LockDown the whole time i was taking pics. idk if it's relevant, but that's what i was vibin with. my favorites from the set are the one at the top of this page, and this one, where i'm gettin my mike jackson on

you'd laugh if i told you how many times i had to do this pose until i caught one i liked (30). i still have the pics too. there's always just a little thing wrong with each of them.

well that's all to do with that.

later in the day, after my mom y abuela got home, my cousins came over. like all the ones that live in this area minus chuck y clara. house full of black people. plus there were two of my cousin's friends there. added heat. genius. wasn't bad though, one of the girls was kinda cute and laughed at random shit i said. too bad i have no idea what her name is...or what she looks like, for that matter. i remember she was cute though. nice smile. she seemed interested. eh, oh well. keep it movin. her friend though...straight JANK feet. that's all i remember about that one. that fish and spaghetti was good today. i remember that too.

wow, if you're still reading now, you're a trooper.

so after the cousins and cousins left, me and my mom went to get gas...or so we thought.
we head to a kroger gas station: pitch black. that place looked deserted. next, we hit up the local RaceTrak. out of gas as well! at this point my mom's frustrated about finding gas while i'm sticking out of the sun roof screaming "This is GAS HUNT!!!" like a spartan on a potent speedball. funniest thing ever. we went to like 5 different stations before we found one with some gas left. when we pulled up to the pump, i put the nozzle in the tank and yelled "FEAST!!!" as i filled it. then i sang that song they played in that snickers commercial: greensleeves. "Alas, my love, you do me wrong, To cast me off discourteously..." and this was loud too. it's like 10:30 and i'm screamin greensleaves at the top of my lungs. i wish i had a video camera. in the middle of my singing, the pump does that auto-stop thing, and it cuts me off and i go: "the feast, it's ruined" and then i finish and get back in the car, dyin laughing. then i drove home.

and now, i'm here, playing my daily combo of Chopped & Screwed/Love LockDown, kinda halfway thinking about gas hunt and what i'm gonna wear tomorrow.

gues i'll go throw something together. i think i wanna wear my nike slip-ins. better look for some blue-jams.

outty.

so far.

i've noticed that there are a lot of people i don't talk to anymore. it's like, i'll see 'em in the hallway and maybe even catch an eye-to-eye, but still say nothin. they don't say anything either. it's just odd. i'm not even particularly disappointed or whatever, it's just an observation. i mean, sure it's kind of sad that people just fall out like that, but like the blacks here say: "shit be like that sometimes".

in other news:

i watched American Gangster on HBO today. then right after that i bumped American Gangster by Jay-Z. that's some more uber-wizard status right there. Gangster movie + Gangster album = uber-wizard-gangster^umpteenth. yea, i went there. lol, revenge of the nerds.

now i'm listenin to The AM Sessions on wvkr.org. it's up in new york so i gotta get it from the net. that's the station that plays my music, for the losers that don't keep up.

tomorrow's gonna be BUSY...hopefully.
got a lot of music business to attend to.
first i gotta see about that track with ms. porsh, she said it's done, she just gotta send it. next i gotta see about that track with Jr. Cash. he finished his part too, i just gotta listen and drop the rest of my verse where he set me up. after that i gotta record a few tracks: Green Light, Low Key, Swagga Like Us, and Come Along for the Ride, Brand New, AND my anthem. this shit's crazy. idk if i can get all those tracks done. i may have to split that work up. i still gotta write for some of 'em. this lil music business right here gets crazy. i keep sayin yes to projects!

lol, 'sall good tho. i love music.

hm, guess i'll go back to my writing.


outty 5000....and 1

dammit.

mrs. **** is a bitch. call's home to tell my mom that my grade dropped cuz i missed last week's work. ugh. now my psp and phone are gone until next week. by that point i will have completed the work and got my stupid grade back. idk why she called, i told her this morning i was gonna get it either today or tomorrow. she didn't threaten to call then. nooooo. well, at least that's all she took. i still have other means i can use to keep my music portable. and she didn't take the headphones (rookie mistake).

now, with that wicked tidbit out of the way.

another wicked tidbit.
----'s not gonna be here tomorrow. i'm mad at her, and i told her so. she's babysitting these homeschooled kids at some "awesome house" for the day. she'll be back monday, but still...that's friday gone. now i see how she feels when i miss our daily lunch rendezvous. hm, idk where i'm gonna sit. i've only sat with her these past 4.5 weeks. where do i sit now? quite the conundrum. maybe i can get into the library. hopefully. maybe the retards are finish retaking the test that they failed the first time around.

now, with that wicket tidbit out of the way.

oranges are amazing. i love them now. they're great when you're hungry and dehydrated at the same time and short on options.

viva naranjas!!!

cold pizza.

today was awesome. why? the temperature. it was cool this morning. i expected that. what i didn't expect as i walked out of the door to the trailers for fourth period was more coolness. a smile began to form at the corners of my mouth, but i suppressed it. no. i thought. it's just the vents at the door. but no, as i passed the vents, the coolness stayed. such a wonderful contrast to the less-than-admirable warmth of summer. the cold is coming, and i'm ecstatic. it's odd that i like cold weather so much. yes, i was born in december, but when you're born in california, december's nothing more than a mere month. it doesn't get cold in los angeles, just "not as hot as it was earlier". i'm an odd person. i get a kick out of rainclouds and low temperatures. i like the sun and warm weather too, just nowhere near as much as i adore the opposite.

it was awesome when i got home too. leftover pizza. wizard. then? the bed. with the ridonkulously comfortable sheets. and my music. that's not wizard. that's ultra-wizard.

now i'm on the pc, listening to this new t-pain/ludacris magic, better known as "Chopped & Screwed" and thinking about how i'd WRECK this if and when i got the instrumental. it'd be some Incredible-ish style verse. chopped and screwed accordingly =).

o! the wizard-ness continues!
just checked the Fall Out Boy website, totally peeped the new cover:























full. metal. DOPENESS.
tryna get this on the day it comes out. maybe i can pre-order it like i did with infinity on high...cheaaa....i'm gonna do that.


uber-wizard.

that's how i'm endin this.

on uber-wizard status.

uber-wizard lives in all of us.